Wow is all I can say. I was just wandering around the site and thought I’d check to see if my message was posted, it was. (message was written August 5th 2007) It brought tears to my eyes to read what I had written. But I’m writing again to further update you! Just to prove the power of Ms Aisha!
Aisha was a huge help to me in the first few weeks. I’d email her and let her know what was going on and she would email back saying she’s right on it!! I knew I loved him dearly but he wasn’t acting super sweet etc to me. Sometimes left me hurt. But I gave him the benefit of the doubt. We were only together for about a month. He had gotten his papers less then a month later saying he could officially leave the service September 6th. One problem he had was he owed $400 to his old apartment. If he couldn’t pay it, it would take him till the end of the month. Determined to have him home sooner..when he’s suppose to…I gave him two weeks of my paychecks…Once again I ignored my bills for him. The day he was suppose to be home…Just six hours before he’d be in our hometown and in my arms…he breaks up with me. Still wanting to be my friend and see where things go…I was by far hurt and crushed and couldn’t figure out why this was happening when Aisha worked so hard to bring him back.
I contacted Aisha and Miriam right away…I was by far a mess…worse then I have ever been! He was still somewhat talking to me…but not like I had hoped..but I wasn’t sure what to expect either! Aisha emailed me back saying she’s helping me out with some things, I had also did a reinforcement and was planning for another Amun ra. In the back of my mind I had this fear and a joke to myself that as soon as I gave her the money etc for another Amun ra..he’d be back. He had been contacting me every so often sometimes on his own..but it didn’t really start until….three weeks after he broke up with me.
It started on September 25th.. He had called me around 5ish..and left me a voicemail message…It was my little sisters birthday so I didn’t quite have the phone attached to me like normal. I was shocked it was him that called…and even more so that he left me a message…he’s only ever done that twice! He wanted to know what I was up too etc…I text him..leaving him to do most of the talking. He was still at work and when he got off and gets home he’d text me. By 9ish I was like he’s not going to text…and started to fall asleep…945..he texts me…we talked until 130 in the morning. That whole week he’d text me at night. Some of the things he wanted and said I knew he still wanted me..just couldn’t figure out why he wasn’t stepping up. Friday he text me all day long. By the time I was to leave for work he wanted to do something that night…At first i assumed he didn’t mean me…but i was dead wrong.
He didn’t have a car so I had to go and pick him up. I was a nervous wreck. Neither of us had money nor knew of what to do. He wanted to meet my mom and sister and know where i lived…so i took him to my house…when he got in my car he smelled of a familiar cologne…knowing fully what it was..i asked..he said the same stuff he wore in high school…the one i adored..i smiled and knew very well he still loved me! He made me laugh and joked…I loved it…at one point he pulled me to him and whispered in my ear about us getting back together. I was so busy engrossed in what we were laughing about..I let what he said soak in..in disbelief and ignore it. All night he kept saying “us” and “we”…there’s a vacant house we own next to my house and asked me why don’t WE live there or rent it. I was like we? he asked what I quickly changed the conversation.
Later that night all cuddled in his arms which felt so right…I was so comfortable I didn’t want it to end…I asked him if there were ever moments you want to freeze and live them forever…i said this is one of those moments. We were quiet for a while and then he quietly asked me about the question he asked me earlier and what my answer was. I stayed quiet…then out of no where..i said yes…he said yes what…i said yes i will…he said yes you will what…both of us went quiet…and then i whispered…be with you….i looked up at him…he said okay and ran his fingers through my hair…and i swear i melted!
Its been a week…and I’m still in shock..I still cant believe it…he’s told me he doesn’t want to be that man he use to be…that he use to be an a-hole. He wants to spend the rest of his life with me and eternity with me. He wants to make me happy everyday…tells me that i make his day everyday. That i’m a part of him and his son now…I’ve gotten to see him twice now. And friday I took the day off work and Matt, Riley and I spent it together. Riley just adores me..and I adore him! Friday night cuddled up to him he asked me about me taking his son to daycare with me (i work in the infant room of a daycare) which shocked me…we’ve discussed it before and he didn’t want me to be around him all day so he wouldn’t get spoiled…I was floored…Course I cried..it was a happy moment..It meant a great deal to me…
My family loves him..and everyone else I’ve introduced him too…My mom has met him before when we dated in HS..and liked him then…she still does..and even more now. And wants him to be around forever…But so does he! really wants to marry me…the whole nine yards…I’m still in shock and disbelief…and cant believe how the man I loved in HS…is back…he’s really back…and i couldn’t be anymore happier…My life seems perfect…and real…I often ask him if this is real…its just such a fairy tale…he tells me its as real as it can get…I love him and his son so much!!!
Thank you Aisha…and Miriam!!! I know I was a pain in the you know what when he broke up with me this last time…But it was almost worth it…when he came back…it was how it was suppose to be…no amount of thank yous could get across and show just how thankful I am to you!!!
In love Still